While I was still in my forties, and menstruating regularly... I realised that I had never really kept count of the Ramadhan obligatory fasts that I had missed, nor of the extra fasts I occasionally kept during the year. So there was no way of knowing how many of my total obligatory fasts were still due.
I started counting the obligatory Ramadhan fasts that I had missed since I entered adulthood. So, that would be approximately seven days every year. Then, I added to the total the four months of Ramadhan of my four pregnancies / lactation. The total came to around one year. Hmm...
I started to keep fasts as often as possible, and give fidya whenever I could. Many months passed. Now only two months remained to the next Ramadhan. Also, an almost equal number of fasts also remained.
I wanted to complete the balance before the next Ramadhan. However, there was one hurdle. Two monthly periods would reduce the count by fourteen days. What to do?
I had recently understood that its not right to 'kill' progeny, and had given up contraception.
I also did not want to get pregnant.
I didn't want to take pills to interfere with the menstrual cycle.
I didn't know of any other natural way of avoiding menses.
I prayed. I asked Allah to forgive me for thinking such things, and I asked for His help to complete my fasts. I admitted I didn't know how. It was a passionate, informal, monologue.
Guess what?
Allah ﷻ responded.
Allah سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى accepted my prayer.
I didn't menstruate the next two months, and thus was able to complete my count a few days before the next Ramadhan began.
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